2015 - Listed

Song of 2015:Ugly Boy - Die Antwoord


Best tv-show 2015:Walking Dead


WIN 2015:Handling all the horrible things that happened so valiantly.

FAIL 2015:I must say, I am so proud of myself this year that I cannot define a fail. And that's a nice feeling.


Worst thing that happened 2015:My beloved Vasara having to leave me for the forever green fields.


Best thing that happened 2015:I found a real home in my new apartment, feeling safe, calm and at ease.


Wish I did more 2015:Spent time in the stable.

Countries I visited 2015:Finland, Austria, Russia, Mongolia, China, England, Denmark, Germany.

Best trip 2015:Transsiberian railway with Anna, Christoffer and Sven.

Carreer 2015:Nothing to report.


Eureka-moment of 2015:I have learned so much and I am so strong, I can do anything.


2016 New Years resolution

Last years resolution was to start doing a detailed budget and to be able to run 5 kilometers. Check!

This year, I will run the race Tjejmilen. 10 kilometers.

2015, I salute you!


And thus yet another year has passed. 
And what a year it has been, filled so many turbulating changes and personal struggles.
Overall it has been a year where all I knew in life crumbled down. Where I had to rise up, once again, and create a new life for myself. Where I had to keep being strong, just when I though I had finally come to a place in life where I could be safe.

When the year began in January, the year I left behind me had been a rough one. Me and Vasara had been fighting relentlessly to heal her injury for half a year and after 174 bloody days I was allowed to ride her for the first time.  And then,  once again we got bad news on the follow-up visit at Ultuna. We decided to book a magnetic x-ray as one final and desperat attempt to find a way to continue.

In the middle of all this, me and Mathias were looking for a new apartment as we wanted somehwere bigger to live.


February.
While me and Vasara kept on taking daily walks in the cold, dark evenings in the wait for the magnetic x-ray, me and Mathias signed the contract for our new apartment in Hammarby Sjöstad, and
I initiated the process of selling my Solna apartment. The days passed on, I was just waiting for the two big things, the move and the x-ray.


March came, and with it, the greatest sadness. The magnetic x-ray showed that Vasara would never again be able to be a ridden horse. I had to  take the decision to let her gallop onto the ever green fields and leave me behind. The pain of this is not possible to put in words, nor is is possible to explain how much I miss her. My soul was ripped apart.

10 days later, my apartment in Solna got sold, and so another chapter of my life was closed in the same month.


Basically all my time outside work during April was spent moving out of Solna and into the new apartment in Hammarby Sjöstad.
The little spare time I had, I spent far out on Munsö, riding Elsa, a horse that my chiropractor had recommended that I started jumping as the owner focused on dressage.



May came.
Mathias turned 28 and we celebrated our 4,5 years anniversary. I handed over the keys to Solna and saw the place where I had lived since 2009 for the last time.

I also reached my new years resolution of being able to run 5 kilometers as I took part in Vårruset.



No blog posts were posted during June and July. This was when one more part of my life broke as me and Mathias separated. Hence, I was left with nowhere to live as Solna was just sold, with no life as Vasara had died and no person to lean on.
I quickly bought my new apartment in Johanneshov. One week after the separation, I moved into Gärdet in one of mom's friends apartments. All my stuff was stored and I was just waiting and waiting and waiting for August to come so I could move into my new home. Meanwhile, I purchased and ordered all furniture so I could quickly get everything ready and start feeling like something was stale in my life again.



August was a crazy month. First of, me and Sven conquered Kebnekaise, an amazing experience I will never forget. And a few days later, I ran the relay-race Bellmanstafetten. This happened to be the same day as I finally got the keys to my new wonderful home.
Only a few days later, during which I has managed to get ALL my furniture up and the apartment completely finished, I travelled to Salzburg for work. And a week after that, me and Anna went to Jämsä to see Linkin Park on their Hunting Party tour.



September 
I turned 28. Didn't celebrate at all. Probably the worst birthday in my life.
Luckily, me, Anna, Sven and Christoffer travelled the Transsiberian railway 11-29 September, a trip I had wanted to do for many years. This trip took us through Russia, Mongolia and China.


In October I worked, and slept, and worked and slept. Everything caught up with me and I got exhausted. Don't remember much from this month actually.


Finally, my luck turned in November as I met Viktor. This gave me hope that I could end the year in a good way.


In December I spent time with Viktor and prepared for Christmas, Baking, wrapping gifts and trying to get into the Christmas spirit.
Christmas was spent in Munich with mom and Monica and new years I got to spend with Viktor in Växjö, meeting the parents and the old friends.

So; 

Good points this year:
Finding a real home
Handling all bad things really well
Transsiberian railway

Bad points this year:
Loosing Vasara
Separation from Mathias
Rough situation at work

= a year I am very happy to leave behind.

Word 2015

What doesn't kill you
                             Makes you stronger

New year, new inspiration

There is something special about New Years. 

I think it is the pure face that it is an inevitable reminder that time is ticking, and so is your life. And with this, comes a natural possibility to change things.

And, me being me, I am actually able to to use this opportunity for change and do something with it. I have never been one for making resolutions which I didn't keep. Nor do I intend to change this fact for the coming year.

For 2016, I intend to go with the flow and wing it, much like I have these past six months during which my life changed into something unrecognizable. This means, I will keep following my dreams of what I wish to to, in the moment I wish to do it. If I want to buy a new horse this summer, I will. If I want to move back to New Zealand, I will.

And I will wing it.
Because, truth be told; it's a mindset. Those who dare, win, 

München 22-27 december

Tisdag 22 december
Vi landade på förmiddagen och åkte taxi till hotell Admiral där vi skulle spendera samtliga 5 nätter,
Hotellet ligger mitt i centrum så vi kunde promenera till Marienplatz pånågra minuter och nujta av den stora julmarknaden. Vi vandrade igenom marknaden, åt Kaiserschmarrn på vägen,  och gick vidare till vårt första historiska mål på resan; Residenz Munich
Lunch åts på Weisses bräuhaus i äkta bavarisk stil. Middag intogs på den indiska restaurangen Shalimar. Så sjukt gott att de förtjänar ytterligare ett pris.

























































Onsdag 23 december
Resans andra historiska resmål avklarades idag; Nymfenburg palace. Vi gick in på våningarna, kollade in vagns-och hästmuseet och den botaniska trädgården. 
Sen lunch panik-åts på McDonalds för att inte svälta ihjäl och middag följde på en italiensk restaurang.









































Torsdag 24 december
Julafton spenderades på stan, shoppandes, på förmiddagen fram tills affärerna stängde.
Då blev det god lunch på den vegetariska restaurangen Prinz Myshkin och sedan tog vi en promenad till Europaplatz och vidare längs Isar innan vi gick tillbaka till hotellet och åt mat på hotellrummet då alla restaurangen var stängda. Som tur var gick många julkonserter på tv.






















Fredag 25 december
Förmiddagen spenderades på ett museum som hade Jean Paul Gaultiers utställning som reser runt i världen nu. Helt fantastiskt!
Sedan promenerade vi runt hela Engelska parken innan vi åter igen åt middag på Shalimar. Sedan var det dags att göra som de inhemska; att se på Helene Fischer show. 





















Lördag 26 december
Resans tredje och sista historiska resmål, och minst sagt höjdpunkten; Herrenchiemsee.
Ett av Ludvig den andres många skrytbyggen och bland det sjukaste jag sett. Tyvärr fick man inte fota inomhus.

















Söndag 27 december
Hemresa. Bye bye München!












Bästa besöket

I helgen hade jag lyckan att få ha Vanja och Lycke på besök hela helgen!

Förutom mys på stan kokade vi även ihop en husvagnsresa i Europa! Wooo woop!

Och en massa ost förtärdes såklart.



Julledighet på G

Idag satte vi schemat för julen och dess ledighet. Jag fick mina två semesterdagar beviljade, vilket innebär att jag kommer få hela 16 dagars julefrid i sträck!

Countdown: 11 dagar

Ingen ridning

Det blir ingen ridning på Enskede. Jag rannsakade mig själv och insåg att jag inte tolererade det ockerpriset. 

Istället känner jag mer och mer för varje dag att jag vill skaffa häst igen. Kanske till sommaren. Så istället för att lägga pengarna på en ridskola så går de till sparande till häst.

Åter till Borås

Hela förra veckan spenderades i Borås.

Tisdag och onsdag bodde jag hos underbara Vanja och bara njöt av god mat, härliga djur och grymt sällskap!
















På fredagen var det julfest, som inte bjöd på så mycket spännande förutom ett gott julbord.

2:a advent

Jag och Viktor firade 2:a advent med frukost, pepparkaksbak och byggande av pepparkakshus. Supermysigt!