- Buy a horse truck and use this as the only vehicle. This option depends on how accessible the stable is using public transport.
- Buy a horse truck and a very cheap tiny car for every day purposes.
- Buy a good sturdy SUV and a horse trailer.
- Buy a good sturdy SUV and only rent a trailer when needed.
With a budget of 12 000 SEK I will try to get a new base wardrobe with timeless garments for all occations, and from quality brands only.
Cant wait! I've been wanting to do this for 3 years now.
I also FINALLY took the time to wrap them all up in bubblewrap to keep them well protected in the storage.
This task has been weighing heavily on me for a long time, and I'm so glad I finally got to it.
I am doing pretty well!
One part of me feel like I'm having a life crisis, another part of me feels like its simply impatience, a demand that there has to be more to life than this.
(How do you define a life crisis anyway? It's not like I'm fighting urges to buy a sports car and do plastic surgery.)
What I do feel however, is that I have lost all the things that made me me. I am not riding, I am not doing any oil painting, I am not dancing, I am not singing. I am not anything anymore.
I no longer know what that is or how to get it back.
I just know that right now I am spending my life going to work and nothing else, and I don’t want that.
Some days I feel like getting a new horse. Other days I get exhausted by the mere thought.
These feelings are the results of a mixture of being dead from work, being afraid of going through a Vasara-thing again, and loosing Dave due to that I will be spending time in the stable every day.
I am also afraid that I am not good enough. That a nice horse will be wasted on me. That feeling I know all too well, it's haunted me my whole life and been my one consistent truth.
Deep inside I think I know what I have to do. It's just, I'm afraid to do it. And that is something cannot accept any longer, it's simply not who I am at heart.
What a wonderful Saturday!
Ellinor picked me up at 11 am at the train station and we drove to Säby gård to have lunch and finally provide me with one of their famous vanilla creme buns that Ellinor has been teasing me with since June last year.
After a pancake lunch, I finally got to eat the bun, and I was NOT disappointed.
We then drove to the stable so that Ellinor could show me where all Heidi's stuff is so that I am prepared for the weekend in a few weeks time when I'll be taking care of her as Ellinor is going away. Looking forward to that time in the stable! I didn't met Ellinor do anything, I was way to happy getting to much out the stall and grooming etc.
Then we drove to Ellinors house where we had some tea and cake and opened our Christmas presents. Then we just chilled before it was time for me to head back home to Dave and dinner.
This was a perfect day, I am so grateful and blessed to have friends like these.
I was planning to attend a piano course during the fall, but I missed it by a mere week as I didn't get my ass out the wagon until middle of August.
This time, I was more prepared and as soon as the course schedules came in the mail box I booked a ten week course, starting February.
Time to fetch my keyboard from the cellar and fulfill one more of my 30 before 30 goals!